the one where i wander why i always get hurt

it never fails. why? why do i always get hurt? i try to be careful, but.. it just never matters.

also- a full sheet of OSB across the top of the foot, from a truck bed does not feel very good.

so we had a big class fight last night... and i loved it, although those tends to make me nervous.

I think it is bullshit that WE, me, i - myself- has to pay money for a $200 tool that someonwe borrowed and lost. I didnt borrow it- and the people who did should be responsible- they should have taken it back when they were done using it- and now it walked off and i have to help pay for it. bullshit. i dont see anyone fixing my bumper because the trailer didnt get hitched on right. or any one paying for the bills because i have been to the hospital 3 times so far for this project... its crap. i dont mind paying for what is my fault- injuries... my fault... i guess. the trailer- not so much, but you know what- im responsible for it- and now the lights on it are messed up and you know who will have to pay to get it fixed? ME? f'ing, grow some balls and just say, " hey it was me- i lost it" and maybe habiTECH should pay- but not us. whatever.

the one with Puck

oh blog... bloggy bloggy blogggg.....

the house. lets see. oh, its probably never going to get finished.  We cant seem to get things figured out...why? too many people wanting to be in control... and also a lack of effort- on all our part, which very much includes myself. I just want a dog...and i want to name it Puck. 

I do wander though, why we have a tend to do that sometimes- not to relinquish control of something, that only we half ass worked on- its not like you put extensive time and energy into it, and yet- it pisses you off when someone criticizes it... constructive or not.. I know I do it sometimes, but other times i don't. Well some other people seem to be suffering from the same problem... but at least i admit it. 

Isn't that architecture..."criticism"....

Its saturday, and we were supposed to go out and work today, but its raining... ALOT.

I like physically working on the house, but i hate the designing... WHY?? I sure wish  I knew- i have absolutely ZERO desire to work on it. maybe it is because i get sick of arguing all the damn time over it... could be a possibility. Or, maybe I just need a change- away from hale. who knows, but something has been REALLY dragging me down lately. 

the one where i broke my ribs... what a dumbass

Well, so last friday... all my dilligent work of digging 5 foot deep footers payed off. I, in all my gracefulness- stepped into one of them (the deepest one of course)... on my way down- I slammed the top half of me into a 2x4- while the bottom half of me managed to ram into the wall for the form work. And so-- it knocked the breath out of me... no doubt. But i do recall my first sentence ( as soon as I was able to talk) being, " I think I broke my F**king ribs"   Oh well, guess what. I did and it sucks-- and hurts.

And of course, Karl said.. " i knew you would be the one to get hurt"-- thanks pal.

So, the project- its coming along... very quickly. In my absence I was placed into the Landscape group, which is actually super exciting to me... I love that stuff.

As far as the class goes, I was disappointed I missed all the work this past week, but I:

A) needed the break

B) cant do much with out doubling over hurting 

C) noticed how well things came together while I was away... hmmmm.... what could this mean?

I am a little disappointed in people, as in Family ( and not just mine) donating to the project. Sometimes I think it is because they feel like they should be giving like $100, but if they just understood that every little but helps alot. I mean- $15, goes a long ways at this point. It sucks that it is not tax deductible for them to donate to habiTECH- i know that would make a huge difference... because I have had this conversation with several people in my family--- oh well what can you do? I just tell them about the project and try to get them to see that it is all for an excellent cause.... thats all I can do