the one where i need encouragement

Ok- well so, we have been busy out at the site. Actually, not really. Actually, I tend to get really annoyed when I am out there because everything always seems SO chaotic and disorganized. We've got people who don't show up until 5 hours after we were supposed to ALL meet there. And then people go off and change what time we are supposed to meet, but dont call and tell anyone. Then its like we get there and no one is sure what to do. Im pretty sure I spent most of my time out there today raking sticks and clipping roots out of the ground. It took forever to get going on the site layout, but it finally got figured out. I guess getting started from that first initial 2 or 3 points is the hardest- but I did help work on that for a bit, and least to learned how it works.

I feel really discouraged about the project as a whole.... its seems like we cant get any one thing done. We always seem to think something is done- but then there will be some ridiculous set back or catastrophe. We make all these dead lines to meet, but we are having to depend on so many different sets of people we cant get anything done- much less get it done to fit within our time lines... and I guess we are partly to blame for the stuff that goes wrong, but  there is no way we can control when other people find time to plumb our house, or cut our trees, or move our dirt, or survey out site, or ... or .. .. or... or- its really starting to bother me. I mean these people are volunteering to do this stuff for us- so we can only push them so much to try and do it.... because, unlike us, they actually have:   A job.  A family. A life.

I got a huge ass log dropped on my foot yesterday-- and it really f*cking hurt! Now I have a swolled foot and a big bruise-- and my shoe makes it hurt more! 

We have been having problems with the neighbors- and pretty much... they dont like us. WELL- today Ms. Evans and the kiddos came out to help us work. Turns out, her and the neighbors know each other and now all of a sudden.. ..  the neighbors are really nice to us- how coincidental. I tell you what.... HOW  ABOUT  YOU  QUIT PUTTING  YOUR  TRASH  ON  OUR  SITE!!!!!!  

Hopefully things will really get underway in the very near future- and hopefully I will gain some faith and courage in the project....